I had a friend who saw the signs and pushed me to get help. I appreciated it a lot. He’d had experience with mental illness so I trusted his judgment. My GP suggested that I start medication but my friend was really against it. He said they made you clouded and that they didn’t work. Because of what he said I wasn’t compliant with my medication and it took much longer for me to start managing my mental illnesses properly. I never had the courage to tell him he was wrong and what hadn’t worked for him had worked for me. I guess my point is, do what you need to in order to get better. You are not alone, but your journey will be difficult. Keep trying until something works.